Journey to a healthy me

I honestly don't take very many rest days. Usually Sundays I don't go to the gym but I tend to grocery shop and run errands. Today though, after only working a short shift, I rested. I listened to music, iced my knee (that's another post for another time), and reflected on this life I have been given. As I read a small devotional by A.W. Towzer about Christ loving the outcasts it reminded me lyrics from a song. ”Jesus loves the outcasts, he loves the ones the world just loves to hate ". This hits home. I was an outcast most of my life because of my weight and beliefs. Even today I feel like an outcast at times. It also reflects to my job. I work with a population that at times no one wants to work with. I just wish I could share Jesus with them and have them truly believe. Today I made positive food choices and I didn't even workout. 1350 is low but today was manageable. I need to find my rhythm again to eat well. There are too many temptations. Self control is so...

I've been thinking about resolutions that I would like to make this year. I have a few that are related to school, some related to work, and some related to my weight loss journey. But before I get there, I want to recap on a few things. Two years ago I decided to make a New Years resolution to give up diet soda. I have done just that. I have not had diet soda in over 2 years. It has been difficult at times, but I feel better not drinking it because I drink more water. I still crave it, but I don't want to make a compromise and have one here and there because I was addicted. I couldn't go without it. One year ago I weighed 224 pounds. Today I weight 167.6 pounds. In one year I have lost over 50 pounds through watching what I eat and exercising. What will this year bring with my weight loss journey? I'm nearing the end of my journey, but it's really only the start because I will then have to learn how to maintain my weight loss. I am not really sure what my goal ...

My eating is OUT OF CONTROL! I had every intention of doing really well today. I started my day off right, then had a light lunch, then a workout, and a snack. Dinner is when I just fell off the wagon. I was making 2 portions of pasta that way I had leftovers for lunch to take with me to work... I got out of control and ate 3/4 of the pan. I then wanted something sweet. I had bought something that I shouldn't have and ate two of these fabulous "granola" bars that are more like candy bars. I did throw away this pumpkin bread and cookies that I somehow brought into my house. I know I need to stop putting off getting back on track. I packed my lunch for tomorrow and I packed my breakfast. I am going to stay on track tomorrow. It has been a struggle lately to keep myself accountable for what I choose to eat. I am doing this to myself and I'm going to lose this weight! I have about 30 pounds to go. I CAN and I WILL do this.