Journey to a healthy me

July 1, 2012 I made the decision that would ultimately change my life. I decided that I was going to take control of my health and weight. I woke up realizing I was sick and tired of the girl I kept seeing in the mirror. The smile on my face was fake. I remember the sizes all of the things I am wearing are. T-shirt was XXL, tank was XL, jeans were 20 short, the fleece was a men's XL, and my bra was most likely a snug 42 DD. Why do I remember the sizes? Probably because I was ashamed of the size I was. I was ashamed of the person I allowed myself to become. I hated that I allowed myself to get to a point of pure unhappiness where I honestly hated myself. Fast forward 2.5 years and I see a different person in the mirror. I see a young woman who smiles. I see a young woman that feels that she has worth. I see a young woman who feels more confident. I know the exact sizes I'm wearing in both pictures of me now... Is that bad? I don't think so. I know what I weigh ...

Typically I have to be careful walking out of the bathroom to my bedroom so my family doesn't get a glimpse of my butt. Well today I discovered that is no longer a problem. I can wrap a towel around me and do not have to worry about my butt sticking out! These little things make me so happy. I have lost 67.8 pounds so far and want to lose another 50 pounds to be at a healthy weight. I increased to 4 days at the gym and started my running program again has been helping me to reach my goal. Eating has been tough lately. I have been so busy that I typically miss breakfast and lunch. I started drinking coffee without anything added to it, and I love it! It has a great taste and I love its zero calories!  A new week starts tomorrow and I need to get a few of my eating habits under control.

I recently had to go for a follow-up on lab work I had done. My fasting blood sugar went from 103 to 87! I was hoping that was the case since type 2 diabetes runs in my family. My bad cholesterol is within normal ranges, my good cholesterol is low, but went up since the last lab work. My doctor was impressed, and I'm encouraged to have her see my results. I'm still Vitamin D deficient, but that is something I can work on with supplements and a little sun if it ever comes out... I was so stuck on week 3 of my couch to 5k. I think I did week 3, 3 or 4 times. I decided to try week 4 which is 16 minutes of running altogether with walking breaks. I was nervous because I struggled when I tried. I slowed the speed down. I struggled Tuesday, but finished it! Today I struggled, but nothing compared to Tuesday. I did it and am going to keep pushing myself.