Standing Still

This week has been a rough week in regards to both eating and running. I've made poor choices and am thinking about switching things up a little. I've thought about joining Weight watchers, but it's so expensive!! I'll keep counting calories for free. I've been craving grapes, and finally bought some, but had no calories left to eat them tonight! I keep telling myself that I'll eat more fruits and veggies, but rarely do. A lot of that has to do with my upbringing. Our meals were rarely well rounded (and still aren't). It's something I need to change for me.

I have a diagnosed medical condition that has been acting up. I have Sciatica. It's the most annoying pain and sensations. Trying to run makes it act up more. Today I didn't run, but it feels much better. Salonpas are amazing. My doctor recommended them and I feel they are helping. Hopefully I can run strong tomorrow!

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