Anxiety

For the past 2 weeks life has had its ups and downs... Actually the last 4 months have had their ups and downs.

Since my last post my cousin, who was only 20, was killed in a car accident. I still keep hoping it's a nightmare. As I try and plan a family vacation, it's difficult thinking she won't be there... I keep thinking I'll go to her house and she'll be there. However she won't be. It's hard when you don't get to tell someone goodbye or that you love them as much as you do.

I've also had some great stuff go on in my life. God was definitely in that and the bad. This person I've known for years finally caught my attention. The last 3 or 4 months have been pretty new and exciting and scary.

Then the last 2 weeks have been awful. My hear races for no reason. I wake up anxious. I lose sleep. I'm sick to my stomach. It's unexplainable. It's tough when you have an inclining that it's Satan trying to attack. I'm in a good place in life and trying hard not to sin and he wants to drag me down. I'm not going to be defeated by him! It's just hard when the anxiety feels out of control. But I know God is in control through the good and the bad. And I just have to recognize that and call out for Him to help.