Day 14...

I made some goals for March and so far I already dropped one of them... Taking my vitamins everyday. I have to figure out a way to remember to take them everyday. I just haven't figured that out yet. 

With no binge eating... Well it's Day 14 and I am struggling!!! I feel so hungry. I had a light lunch because I have a bigger calorie dinner planned. Then I have oatmeal planned tonight after small group, where I hope they don't have snacks because I'm afraid I will binge. Social situations typically push me to binge or eat more than I would have. Last night I had friends come over. They were eating 3 to 4 pieces of pizza each... I had ONE and a salad. That was not my own will power though. God was helping me to make that decision to eat well. We had ice cream later... I weighed everything out to stay on target. It was tough, but it was worth it. I didn't work out yesterday or today and that is making me anxious because I don't like to not work out, but I know I need to rest. I'll get back at it in the morning and will continue to eat well. 

On a positive note when I weighed in on Saturday I was down 3.6 pounds!!! So I don't want to binge knowing that what I'm doing is working... Drinking lots of water to try and get through. Typically I would turn to food right now because I'm stressed out, but I will make it. I just have to keep focusing on my goals and where I want to be in a few months. 

I'm going to grab a snack that was part of dinner, but hopefully it will help me get through the day instead of bingeing on junk. 

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