Day 7

I'm on Day 7 of not bingeing and it's getting tough. I've been working on some sample questions for the Praxis exam that I'm taking tomorrow. I just started studying yesterday and I'm getting pretty nervous about how I'm going to do. I need to study some more and I made a list of things I need to look at so that's what I'm going to do. However, I'm sitting here thinking about food and the chocolate in my cupboard that I haven't touched since I bought over a week ago is calling my name. I'm afraid if I start eating it, well I won't stop and it will probably be close to 1,000 calories or more of junk. I have chicken and veggies on the menu for dinner as well as oatmeal planned for a snack this evening.

I have coffee brewing to hopefully help me be more alert and  make smart choices. I found this Almond Milk Creamer that has helped when I have a sweets craving. I typically drink my coffee black, but this is a treat, and it's pretty healthy compared to the typical creamers. After that I have 180-280 calories left. MyFitnessPal says 180, but I'm trying something new by 100 calories back a week to increase my metabolism since I've been restricting my calories for almost 3 years. It might increase my metabolism, who knows. About 5 hours left to struggle and then I can go to bed. Tomorrow is going to be a temptation since I won't be home most of the day, but getting fitted for a bridesmaid dress may alter my decision on what I get for lunch or I should just pack my lunch which I think would be the best plan of action. 

Back to studying. Hoping the questions are similar to the sample questions. If not, I'm not going to do so well. 

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